1) Have you ever been to an AA meeting or similar support group meeting?
Nope....can think of one or two I should have been too.
2) Have you ever used ice for sexual purposes?
Yes
3) If given the chance to live as the opposite sex for the day, would you?
HELL YEAH.....for a few reasons.
4) On a scale of 1-10, how well do you receive constructive criticism?
3
5) Have you ever been INSIDE a store that sold adult themed toys and videos?
Several times.
Bonus (as in "optional"):
Have you ever been propositioned for group sex?
Yes
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Tuesday, March 28, 2006
To my dear hubs
This to shall pass, my love. I am sorry. I will find someway to make it all right.
Driftin' Away
With all of my heart, I know I could love you
But, with all of my soul, I'm driftin away
With all of my mind, I know you could save me from myself
And anything else,
With all of my strength, I wanna reach out for you
With every breath, I call out your name
With every step, I just wanna turn around and say
Baby make it okay
But I'm so afraid
that you've forgiven me one too many times
And I'm so afraid
to give my heart again, just to have a change of mind
And I'm not quite sure that you can trust me
And I would hate to have you find me again
Baby, like the wind, driftin away
It blows and nobody knows where it's going to
(I'm driftin away)
It blows and nobody know what it's gonna do
With all of my heart, I know I disappointed you
And although I'm real sorry
I don't know how to save this time
But, if I would lose you
I know I would go completely out of my mind
I'm running out of time
And I'm so afraid that you've forgiven me one too many times
And I'm so afraid to give my heart again just to have a change of mind
And I'm not quite sure that you can trust me
And I would hate to have you find me again
Baby, like the wind, driftin away
It blow and nobody knows where it's going to
(Driftin away)
It blows and nobody knows what it's gonna do
(You see my heart at night)
At night you can hear it cry as the tear drops fall from heaven's eyes
(Fallin down)
And somehow you know it's true, these tears that fall are fallin for you
(Fallin for you)
It blows and nobody knows where's it going to
(Fallin down)
It blows and nobody knows what it's gonna do
At night you can hear it cry as the tear drops fall from heaven's eyes
And somehow you know it's true these tears that fall are for you
(Repeat)
Projects and Kids
Gotta love giving 7th graders a project. I know I had a bad attitude from the start, but I seriously do not know how they can mess this up. All they have to do is design a farm around a product I give them and pick a type of farm that we have discussed in class. They can bring in products that represent their products to.....food in the class room. I know what your are thinking, this teacher is on crack LOL. I just hope the next two days go well.
I have needed an attitude adjustment lately and I might as well do what Big Mama says and make it my choice to have a good day and not grumble anymore. So I am sitting back watching these kids and they crack me up. I forget that most of them have never seen a farm in their lives and they can't think of what goes on one. They don't realize they can be as creative as they want. I have put no restrictions on them. I honestly can't wait to see what they come up with for the next two days for presentations.
Peace out......Remember Make it a great day or not, the choice is yours *snickering*
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
TMI Tuesday
Ok I found this while reading at TKW and clicked a link and then another link and I had to participate!!!
TMI Tuesday
:
1) Have you ever disturbed other people by making excessive noise while having sex?
Yes. When I was in college my RA came to me to tell me they could hear a LOT and wanted me to know the walls were very thin in our apartment building. My RA was as old as my mom and I was so embarassed. Now I wouldn't care. I kind of miss those loud days.
2) What is the most romantic thing you have ever done or said??
Buying hubs tickets to see Neil Diamond for our anniversary.
3) Have you ever licked or sucked on someone else's feet and/or toes?
Nope.
4) On a scale of 1-10, how much does music mean to you in your daily life?
10.....VERY VERY VERY important.
5) Have you ever fallen asleep or passed out during sex?
Ummmm, don't think so, but there is that one night I don't remember, hubs might be able to answer this one better for me LOL
Bonus (as in "optional"): Have you ever given or received a hickey on your upper inner thigh? Anywhere?
Recieved one on the upper thigh once (never cared for them at all) and have only given one myself once, but not on the upper thigh.
TMI Tuesday
:1) Have you ever disturbed other people by making excessive noise while having sex?
Yes. When I was in college my RA came to me to tell me they could hear a LOT and wanted me to know the walls were very thin in our apartment building. My RA was as old as my mom and I was so embarassed. Now I wouldn't care. I kind of miss those loud days.
2) What is the most romantic thing you have ever done or said??
Buying hubs tickets to see Neil Diamond for our anniversary.
3) Have you ever licked or sucked on someone else's feet and/or toes?
Nope.
4) On a scale of 1-10, how much does music mean to you in your daily life?
10.....VERY VERY VERY important.
5) Have you ever fallen asleep or passed out during sex?
Ummmm, don't think so, but there is that one night I don't remember, hubs might be able to answer this one better for me LOL
Bonus (as in "optional"): Have you ever given or received a hickey on your upper inner thigh? Anywhere?
Recieved one on the upper thigh once (never cared for them at all) and have only given one myself once, but not on the upper thigh.
God Speaks Devotional time
Are you kidding me?? This was my devotional today from the God Speaks website. These are based on the billboards that went up a few years ago. I love the book I got on them and subscribe to the daily devotional. So this is what I find this morning. Since when do I want to avoid temptation????? Those who know me well know better. My attitude is this: bring it on.....it is what gets me through my day LOL The story is really cool that goes with this one though.
Get up and pray that you will not fall into temptation.
- Luke 22:46
According to an old legend, two monks named Tanzan and Ekido were traveling together down a muddy road one day. Heavy monsoon rains had saturated the area, and they were grateful for a few moments of sunshine to make their journey. Before long, they came around a bend and encountered a lovely girl in a silk komono. She looked forlorn as she stared at the muddy road before her.
At once, Tanzan responded to her plight. "Come here, girl," he said. Then lifting her in his arms, he carried her over the slippery ooze to the other side of the road.
Ekido didn't speak again to Tanzan. Then that night after they reached their intended lodging, Ekido could no longer restrain his anger and disappointment. "We monks don't go near women," he said to Tanzan in an accusing voice. "Why did you do that?"
"I left the girl back there, Ekido," replied Tanzan. "Are you still carrying her?"
Ekido thought that he had insulated himself from temptation by constructing rigid laws of conduct. Because he was focused on the letter of the law, he succumbed to the temptation to be ruled by anger, resentment, intolerance, and a lack of kindness. Don't be fooled; only God can help you master temptation by writing His living laws upon your heart.
Get up and pray that you will not fall into temptation.
- Luke 22:46
According to an old legend, two monks named Tanzan and Ekido were traveling together down a muddy road one day. Heavy monsoon rains had saturated the area, and they were grateful for a few moments of sunshine to make their journey. Before long, they came around a bend and encountered a lovely girl in a silk komono. She looked forlorn as she stared at the muddy road before her.
At once, Tanzan responded to her plight. "Come here, girl," he said. Then lifting her in his arms, he carried her over the slippery ooze to the other side of the road.
Ekido didn't speak again to Tanzan. Then that night after they reached their intended lodging, Ekido could no longer restrain his anger and disappointment. "We monks don't go near women," he said to Tanzan in an accusing voice. "Why did you do that?"
"I left the girl back there, Ekido," replied Tanzan. "Are you still carrying her?"
Ekido thought that he had insulated himself from temptation by constructing rigid laws of conduct. Because he was focused on the letter of the law, he succumbed to the temptation to be ruled by anger, resentment, intolerance, and a lack of kindness. Don't be fooled; only God can help you master temptation by writing His living laws upon your heart.
Oh the Joys....
....of working in hell.
Things have been pretty quiet, but then I hide in my classroom, don't leave unless I have to and lay low. Today I had 3 people stop me and tell me how they haven't seen me in ages. No shit. I am not leaving my room for anything. I think I have official squatter's rights now. I swear the less they (meaning the dweebs in charge) see me the better off I am.
Here we are racing towards April and I still have not been evaluated (no big surprise there) and I doubt I will get an official observation. I can't wait for that to happen. I told a fellow teacher today to quit helping them (the dweebs again). I want to see them go down and go down hard. A little taste of vindication. I am pretty much done with being pissed at the dweebs, I am now just angry that I have to get up and waste 8 hours of my day there. I can think of so many other things I would rather be doing with my time.
Things with hubs are so so. He says I have been distant and moody. And maybe I have, but I feel like I am more his child these days than his wife. Big deal there. We are in a major battle of the wills and with me being a spoiled brat that always gets her way......um, I am not willing to give in. These battles can get brutal.
Some days I wish I could just take a little vacation away from everything and unwind. Don't want to leave forever, just for a little while. Not really up for a lot of deep conversation or anything these days. It is all about building my business and having fun. Nothing else needs to get in the way of those two things.
I hope you all are having a great start to the week.
Peace out.......and David.....I MISS YOU!!! (snickering.....I thought I would let you know here too)
Things have been pretty quiet, but then I hide in my classroom, don't leave unless I have to and lay low. Today I had 3 people stop me and tell me how they haven't seen me in ages. No shit. I am not leaving my room for anything. I think I have official squatter's rights now. I swear the less they (meaning the dweebs in charge) see me the better off I am.
Here we are racing towards April and I still have not been evaluated (no big surprise there) and I doubt I will get an official observation. I can't wait for that to happen. I told a fellow teacher today to quit helping them (the dweebs again). I want to see them go down and go down hard. A little taste of vindication. I am pretty much done with being pissed at the dweebs, I am now just angry that I have to get up and waste 8 hours of my day there. I can think of so many other things I would rather be doing with my time.
Things with hubs are so so. He says I have been distant and moody. And maybe I have, but I feel like I am more his child these days than his wife. Big deal there. We are in a major battle of the wills and with me being a spoiled brat that always gets her way......um, I am not willing to give in. These battles can get brutal.
Some days I wish I could just take a little vacation away from everything and unwind. Don't want to leave forever, just for a little while. Not really up for a lot of deep conversation or anything these days. It is all about building my business and having fun. Nothing else needs to get in the way of those two things.
I hope you all are having a great start to the week.
Peace out.......and David.....I MISS YOU!!! (snickering.....I thought I would let you know here too)
Sunday, March 19, 2006
Cult Conference
So this weekend was the MK career conference. It is amazing how fired up I get after one of these meetings. I am ready to rock my business to the core right now. I have made a decision to become an Independent Sales Director by June 30th. This is going to take a lot of work and a few sacrifices, but in the end it boils down to one thing I heard yesterday: If I dare to do in two years what most people won't, then I can live a lifetime like most people can't. I heard a sales director speak yesterday that went from working a job that had crazy hours in the corporate world making just over 40k five years ago to being the number one sales director at Dallas 1 career conference and making over 200k last year in commissions ALONE!! So I had to ask myself, what did she have that I don't. The answer nothing....she made a decision and her dream was big enough and she has gone for it. I am going to do the same thing. My director and her partner directors have challenged me to get 6 new recruits by March 31st so I can submit my letter for DIQ (Director in Qualification) by April 1. Scary as hell. This is what we call a puke goal. I have the drive and determination. I need the people (noticed I didn't just say women). I went out yesterday and got 4 names, one of which could be a possible recruit. I was jammin' after leaving conference.
Here is my theme song for the next 105 days while I build towards being a director and earning my first FREE car....a styling platinum Pontiac Grand Prix. (I can't wait to be zipping down the road in that car on that stretch of open road on the way to my inlaws house. We will see how fast that little grand prix can go!!)
Theme Song:
"Unwritten"
Natasha Bedingfield
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, oh, oh
I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, yeah, yeah
My book is unwritten right now and it is going to be an inspirational novel of how to get to greatness when I am done!!
Here is my theme song for the next 105 days while I build towards being a director and earning my first FREE car....a styling platinum Pontiac Grand Prix. (I can't wait to be zipping down the road in that car on that stretch of open road on the way to my inlaws house. We will see how fast that little grand prix can go!!)
Theme Song:
Natasha Bedingfield
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, oh, oh
I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, yeah, yeah
My book is unwritten right now and it is going to be an inspirational novel of how to get to greatness when I am done!!
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Things to do
1. Building MK business.....never know when you might need the money, might as well build it up now.
2. Track my eating better.....I haven't been doing the WWs like I should lately, and Lord knows I want the slamming body.
3. Stop Saturday nights for a while.....as much as it kills me to write this, I think hubs is unable to handle my Saturday nights and to ensure balance in the home I will give them up for a while to help him regain some security.
I think that is enough for my list now. I am feeling a little hurt and alone right now. Hubs definitely got his point across today, and I am not one to ignore someone when they pull something as drastic as he did. I learn lessons like this one quickly. Funny how I just posted about how rooster and tiger work and don't work and be damned if it doesn't shine through in my own little world. Go figure....
Peace out.
2. Track my eating better.....I haven't been doing the WWs like I should lately, and Lord knows I want the slamming body.
3. Stop Saturday nights for a while.....as much as it kills me to write this, I think hubs is unable to handle my Saturday nights and to ensure balance in the home I will give them up for a while to help him regain some security.
I think that is enough for my list now. I am feeling a little hurt and alone right now. Hubs definitely got his point across today, and I am not one to ignore someone when they pull something as drastic as he did. I learn lessons like this one quickly. Funny how I just posted about how rooster and tiger work and don't work and be damned if it doesn't shine through in my own little world. Go figure....
Peace out.
Story of Tiger and Rooster
I have been reading about astrology lately and chinese astrology has been very interesting. Hubs and I seem to always have work ahead of us no matter what atrological signs you look at. Kind of funny.....since he and I know we are opposites on a personality scale and yet somehow we make it through........maybe we will beat the odds the stars had NOT placed in our favor.
The Tiger and the Rooster have certain complementary characteristics and others that don't fit together as well; for their relationship to run smoothly, each Sign will have to work to meet the other's needs. Both are noble souls who know what they want -- and that in itself can create problems. The Rooster wants mere perfection, which is quite a tall order, especially for the individualistic Tiger, who refuses to follow anyone's lead but its own. The Tiger is affable and easy-going until it starts being told what to do, where to be and when, but the Rooster has perfected the art of nagging, which may cause the Tiger to turn tail and run! The Rooster means well; it simply always sees room for improvement and doesn't possess much finesse when communicating its expectations. Expectations generally cause the Tiger to throw up its guard, since this Sign is very protective of itself, its individuality and its freedom ... and so on.
As lovers these two might experience frequent disagreements. The Tiger's resistance of the Rooster's rules will only serve to annoy the Rooster, perhaps giving it the impression that the Tiger is both sloppy and self-interested. The Tiger, in turn, may begin to think the Rooster is too much of an autocrat, trying to get into the Tiger's business and exert control! The truth is, the Tiger is used to being in charge and the Rooster is used to having its point of view respected and followed, but these qualities don't mesh together very well. These two Signs may fare better in a business relationship; the Tiger actually might appreciate the Rooster's efforts to make things in the office and in the company perfectly spotless and trouble-free, and the Rooster might be glad to let the Tiger assume the position of front person, leaving the Rooster to get things going behind the scenes. Whatever their relationship, however, these two must try hard not to argue too much.
The Tiger and the Rooster have certain complementary characteristics and others that don't fit together as well; for their relationship to run smoothly, each Sign will have to work to meet the other's needs. Both are noble souls who know what they want -- and that in itself can create problems. The Rooster wants mere perfection, which is quite a tall order, especially for the individualistic Tiger, who refuses to follow anyone's lead but its own. The Tiger is affable and easy-going until it starts being told what to do, where to be and when, but the Rooster has perfected the art of nagging, which may cause the Tiger to turn tail and run! The Rooster means well; it simply always sees room for improvement and doesn't possess much finesse when communicating its expectations. Expectations generally cause the Tiger to throw up its guard, since this Sign is very protective of itself, its individuality and its freedom ... and so on.
As lovers these two might experience frequent disagreements. The Tiger's resistance of the Rooster's rules will only serve to annoy the Rooster, perhaps giving it the impression that the Tiger is both sloppy and self-interested. The Tiger, in turn, may begin to think the Rooster is too much of an autocrat, trying to get into the Tiger's business and exert control! The truth is, the Tiger is used to being in charge and the Rooster is used to having its point of view respected and followed, but these qualities don't mesh together very well. These two Signs may fare better in a business relationship; the Tiger actually might appreciate the Rooster's efforts to make things in the office and in the company perfectly spotless and trouble-free, and the Rooster might be glad to let the Tiger assume the position of front person, leaving the Rooster to get things going behind the scenes. Whatever their relationship, however, these two must try hard not to argue too much.
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Spring Break Out
Well folks it is that time of year!! SPRING BREAK!!! Once again I have decided to kick off break with a bang.
First on my list was to get my foot tattooed. Last spring break I did my shoulder, a lovely little butterfly and yin-yang under it. Hubs is the reason for the yin-yang and I think I have mentioned that before. So this year I got my rose and a heart behind it. I wanted to put the rose on my hand, but hubs and everyone else said no way. So I put the heart I wanted on my foot originally with the rose and put them both on my foot. Of course the rose had to be in pink....It is all about the PINK....Right?
Last night I brought in spring break with a bang! I think there were 3 Goldschlagers, one Eat My Pussy (actually a good drink), and I think I drank most of the pitcher myself. I wasn't feeling any pain and had a hell of a good time. Sassy met with Hubs and I, along with a couple of other friend. The neighbors were out ridin' with the biker gang and didn't show back up to the bar until around midnight or 12:30.....I have some lapse in my memory when it comes to time. I just know that I sang two songs....first one blew, second I think sounded a little better, but I might have been slurring that one......I know that I danced a lot.....well a lot for me. And I got jiggy with it with a couple of guys. One of the guys in the biker gang is one of my fave dance partners ever! I love getting on the floor with him. I don't feel so self conscious with him out there dancing with me and the other girlies on the floor. I think I will get out there and do the electric slide next weekend. I am going to have to counter all the feel good wholesome fun I am going to have at the cult seminar.
Peace out my peeps......will keep you up to date on the going ons of this spring break. I am trying not to do too much work lol
First on my list was to get my foot tattooed. Last spring break I did my shoulder, a lovely little butterfly and yin-yang under it. Hubs is the reason for the yin-yang and I think I have mentioned that before. So this year I got my rose and a heart behind it. I wanted to put the rose on my hand, but hubs and everyone else said no way. So I put the heart I wanted on my foot originally with the rose and put them both on my foot. Of course the rose had to be in pink....It is all about the PINK....Right?
Last night I brought in spring break with a bang! I think there were 3 Goldschlagers, one Eat My Pussy (actually a good drink), and I think I drank most of the pitcher myself. I wasn't feeling any pain and had a hell of a good time. Sassy met with Hubs and I, along with a couple of other friend. The neighbors were out ridin' with the biker gang and didn't show back up to the bar until around midnight or 12:30.....I have some lapse in my memory when it comes to time. I just know that I sang two songs....first one blew, second I think sounded a little better, but I might have been slurring that one......I know that I danced a lot.....well a lot for me. And I got jiggy with it with a couple of guys. One of the guys in the biker gang is one of my fave dance partners ever! I love getting on the floor with him. I don't feel so self conscious with him out there dancing with me and the other girlies on the floor. I think I will get out there and do the electric slide next weekend. I am going to have to counter all the feel good wholesome fun I am going to have at the cult seminar.
Peace out my peeps......will keep you up to date on the going ons of this spring break. I am trying not to do too much work lol
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Gorging on Self
Having a conversation with a respected friend got me to thinking.
I have been working hard to lose weight and improve myself and I think I have been doing a great job. I have enjoyed my journey and it is far from being over. I have noticed in the last few months that hubs has started to really try to bring the sledge hammer down on my fun. I didn't think we were going to have a problem, but everyone kept telling me to get ready.
Then in January when HB went off on me and I resigned from all of my extra duties at the school I decided it was time to do some things for myself. I have been on a steady diet of self since then. Well this has had some major consequences. I know I have become very self centered and focused on just me, but I have been focused on everyone else for so long it was time.
I know I have some people worried about me. I am fine. I am not going off the deep end. Hubs is my world and I am not leaving him (no matter how scared he might be about that). I am fine. I am FINE. I AM FINE!! I just wanted to be selfish for a while and I am starting to think that maybe it isn't worth it. Maybe I just need to give up on being me and just be the person that everyone expects me to be. I am not happy in either situation and maybe getting out of hell in May will make a difference.
I went to a cult meeting today and got all fired up again. I think I want to be a director.....not think, know that I want to be a director. I want to drive a free car and I want to build my business with Mary Kay. Plan is to be in my free car by August. I would like to be in DIQ (Director in qualification) by May and use the summer to get my free Grand Prix. Guess I will have to put all of my focus in my business and forget about me for a while so I can reach these goals.
I need a road trip to clear my head. Need to get out of dodge for a day or two. Anyone have any ideas on where I should go?
I have been working hard to lose weight and improve myself and I think I have been doing a great job. I have enjoyed my journey and it is far from being over. I have noticed in the last few months that hubs has started to really try to bring the sledge hammer down on my fun. I didn't think we were going to have a problem, but everyone kept telling me to get ready.
Then in January when HB went off on me and I resigned from all of my extra duties at the school I decided it was time to do some things for myself. I have been on a steady diet of self since then. Well this has had some major consequences. I know I have become very self centered and focused on just me, but I have been focused on everyone else for so long it was time.
I know I have some people worried about me. I am fine. I am not going off the deep end. Hubs is my world and I am not leaving him (no matter how scared he might be about that). I am fine. I am FINE. I AM FINE!! I just wanted to be selfish for a while and I am starting to think that maybe it isn't worth it. Maybe I just need to give up on being me and just be the person that everyone expects me to be. I am not happy in either situation and maybe getting out of hell in May will make a difference.
I went to a cult meeting today and got all fired up again. I think I want to be a director.....not think, know that I want to be a director. I want to drive a free car and I want to build my business with Mary Kay. Plan is to be in my free car by August. I would like to be in DIQ (Director in qualification) by May and use the summer to get my free Grand Prix. Guess I will have to put all of my focus in my business and forget about me for a while so I can reach these goals.
I need a road trip to clear my head. Need to get out of dodge for a day or two. Anyone have any ideas on where I should go?
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Sad news
On Tuesday my hallway hottie wasn't feeling real great. He had been written up for stuff that didn't even need to be put on paper. Head Bitch decided I guess that since she didn't clear out the whole freaking building of teachers that she would work on the ones that didn't leave this year. So my hallway hottie is on her list of ones to get rid of. First let me say this man is the nicest man I have ever met. Even with all of our joking around and playful flirting, you know he is completely devoted to his wife and loves her with all his heart. He didn't do this job for money (but then let's be honest did any of us teachers think we were going to get rich off this job?). He just wanted to make a difference and I think he got into a school that didn't really foster the nurturing kind of man and teacher that he is.
Tuesday night we had report card pick up night. Parent come in and get their child's report card and get to talk to the teachers. We have to stay late and many of us see no point in leaving the school when we have to be there by 5:30. So Mr. Hottie comes down to my room and tells me that someone has told him that his lips were purple or blue and did I think they looked that way. I told him yes and I wanted him to go to the nurse and get his blood pressure checked. It has been really high and HB being on his ass every time he turns around hasn't helped on bit! It was bad enough that the nurse called 911. What she didn't say to him, but pretty much told his wife (who is a nurse), is she believes he had a mild stroke. WTF?!? He is the picture of health. How is it that someone's work environment can wear them down that bad? Can you say lawsuit?
I don't know, just kind of down. He is one of the few people that always has a smile for you no matter how bad his day is going. I hope the tests they ran today don't show anything other than stress induced anxiety or something real mild like that. I like look at the glass half full on this one, but I hope to know something by tomorrow.
Now do some of you understand why I call that place hell? Or at least one of the various levels of hell and I am pretty sure it is one of the deeper, you don't want to go there when you die kinds of levels too!!
Prayers going out to my hallway hottie.
Peace out to the rest of you!
Tuesday night we had report card pick up night. Parent come in and get their child's report card and get to talk to the teachers. We have to stay late and many of us see no point in leaving the school when we have to be there by 5:30. So Mr. Hottie comes down to my room and tells me that someone has told him that his lips were purple or blue and did I think they looked that way. I told him yes and I wanted him to go to the nurse and get his blood pressure checked. It has been really high and HB being on his ass every time he turns around hasn't helped on bit! It was bad enough that the nurse called 911. What she didn't say to him, but pretty much told his wife (who is a nurse), is she believes he had a mild stroke. WTF?!? He is the picture of health. How is it that someone's work environment can wear them down that bad? Can you say lawsuit?
I don't know, just kind of down. He is one of the few people that always has a smile for you no matter how bad his day is going. I hope the tests they ran today don't show anything other than stress induced anxiety or something real mild like that. I like look at the glass half full on this one, but I hope to know something by tomorrow.
Now do some of you understand why I call that place hell? Or at least one of the various levels of hell and I am pretty sure it is one of the deeper, you don't want to go there when you die kinds of levels too!!
Prayers going out to my hallway hottie.
Peace out to the rest of you!
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
The Stars
Time to shift gears? Then stop working. Put down the legal pad, the calculator and all work-related tools. In fact, don't just put them down, put them away -- far away. You need some serious recreation, but with that roll you've been on lately, you may also need some help loosening up -- a shoulder rub, maybe, or just a good, long chat with a friend. Of course, laughter has always been your best friend. Why not find a playmate?
I love that idea of not working LOL. Hubs would not care for that too much. But I really do need some serious play time these days. And see even my stars say it is time for me to find a playmate.....now where to find one? :-)
I love that idea of not working LOL. Hubs would not care for that too much. But I really do need some serious play time these days. And see even my stars say it is time for me to find a playmate.....now where to find one? :-)
Welcome March
I am so happy that March is here. That means spring break is right around the corner. I had kind of hoped to get the hell out of town for a day or so. I may still talk hubby into a day trip to Oklahoma. But otherwise my plans were pretty much squashed for Spring Break.
Last Spring Break was very eventful. I went red with my hair.....love it. Got a tattoo......love it. Started Weight Watchers....still loving it since I am near 75 pounds LOST!!! This Spring Break I have to find something wild to do. I know I would like to go next Friday night and get my foot tattooed, but we will see if the powers that be (that being hubs) will give in and let me do it. I have to have something fun to do LOL.
Other wise life is pretty boring right now. Got the Explorer in the shop today and as karma would have it the rent car place put me in a freaking MOM VAN!!! I think the stars are not in my favor this week. I may need to go read the horoscopes. I haven't take the time this week.
I hope everyone had a great Mardi Gras. I went out with friends to a bar and had a couple of drinks, got me some beads and rolled into bed around one this morning. I unfortunately was not out partying that whole time. I headed home around 10:30 to get hubs to bed and then relieved PITA of babysitting duties at the neighbor's house. I fell asleep on their couch waiting for them to get home. I think the fact that I just got to go out on Mardi Gras was good enough for me though. I had a great time!!
Peace out........
Last Spring Break was very eventful. I went red with my hair.....love it. Got a tattoo......love it. Started Weight Watchers....still loving it since I am near 75 pounds LOST!!! This Spring Break I have to find something wild to do. I know I would like to go next Friday night and get my foot tattooed, but we will see if the powers that be (that being hubs) will give in and let me do it. I have to have something fun to do LOL.
Other wise life is pretty boring right now. Got the Explorer in the shop today and as karma would have it the rent car place put me in a freaking MOM VAN!!! I think the stars are not in my favor this week. I may need to go read the horoscopes. I haven't take the time this week.
I hope everyone had a great Mardi Gras. I went out with friends to a bar and had a couple of drinks, got me some beads and rolled into bed around one this morning. I unfortunately was not out partying that whole time. I headed home around 10:30 to get hubs to bed and then relieved PITA of babysitting duties at the neighbor's house. I fell asleep on their couch waiting for them to get home. I think the fact that I just got to go out on Mardi Gras was good enough for me though. I had a great time!!
Peace out........
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