A classic TG vent

For new readers....there are times when I have allowed a few things to eat at me and it is time for me to really just get out how I feel about them.  Now when I get to a venting stage, I can't really stick with one topic, because there are multiple topics bothering me.  Buckle up, these are usually fun :).

So PITA.....OMFG!!!!  Seriously, this will be the first time I have ever agreed with the many people in my life who have said this, but I agree PITA may be a sociopath.  Now I have looked this up in the past and dismissed certain traits because of her age, but I can't do that any longer.  So checked this out peeps, my 20 year old left a man who many of us (me more than any of the others) didn't really want in her life but could see he truly cared about her....she left this man to go back to a 40 year old cocaine dealer who beats the fucking shit out of her.  I have heard her telling the stories of bloody noses and bruises and injuries.  SHE WENT BACK TO THAT?!?!  And the man she left, he wants to create a home and a family with her and the baby she is pregnant with, he wants to take care of her....when I mentioned this to her last night she looked at me for a second like it might get to her and she then brushed it off.  I do not know what to do now that I accept the thought most people who know PITA think she is a sociopath.  Should I be scared of her?  I will say this, check this link PITA has every single quality on the list :(

Next.......hmmmmm....and I know he will read this....PS my new love, I do not care......McKinney.  We still have yet to figure out how to combine our schedules in a way that provides us with time to see each other.  I get very frustrated because my feelings start to grow very quickly for this man when I spend time with him.  I want to cuddle up next to him, but then don't know how he would feel about that, so I don't.  I kinda want to stay the night, but I am so afraid I won't sleep, and he will think I am a complete nerd.  He really doesn't know how spoiled I am with my own bed lol.  I sometimes don't know if he is really that in to me.  I feel like I am trying so hard on my side and getting no where.  And the funny thing is, as he is reading this, he is probably feeling the same way...but he won't tell me.  I want little texts letting me know he is thinking about me.  McKinney has NO IDEA how much will power it took to NOT text today.  I was frustrated, feeling hurt, angry about the situation with PITA.  Peeps...this is the cherry on the sundae, because of PITA being so damn flaky and not giving a damn about any one else's feelings, I didn't get to see McKinney this weekend.  If the trend keeps, that means the earliest I would see him would be Friday which would be TWO WEEKS!  Absolutely not fucking acceptable when two people are trying to build something more than a friends with benefits surface bullshit thing.  I am just saying!  So last night when I texted McKinney if I could come out after work today and never got a response, my feelings were hurt.  I didn't get to sleep 'til well after midnight last night because of PITA.  I had a long day at work.  But you know it would have been nice to look forward to seeing him, even with the weather and the traffic.

More than anything I could use a safe place to land.  I regret allowing my daughter's mess to once again mess with the flow of my life.  I know I am falling in love with McKinney.  These breaks have made it a slower process, but when I am with him I just feel good.  I miss him when I am away from him.  I am terrified of him thinking I am nuts if I really blew up his phone with the random things throughout the day I think of that I want to tell him, or just the times that I am sitting at my desk at work and I wonder if he is thinking of me like I am of him.  McKinney....if you read this.....I can't be anymore clear.  By they way...yes I feel much better.

Ok...peeps....the pressure has lifted.....Peace out my peeps....