This post will be a little more adult than most and I will admit somethings I am even a little ashamed to admit. That is the part I don't understand, being ashamed. I am comfortable in my sexuality and what I like. So why is our society so quick to condemn in public what the majority of us are doing behind closed doors? That is what I was thinking about when I was watching porn last night.
I had seen a little bit of porn before I met ex-hubs, and he allowed me to examine my curiosity of it. However, I never wanted him to know when I watched it without him. I would literally rewind the VHS tape back to the spot it was on when I started the video. I didn't want to feel shame over watching it even though I was an adult woman. DVDs made my life easier. Now it doesn't seem to be the "norm" for a woman to watch porn or to even enjoy it, but I do. So, sue me. I watch porn everyday lately (possibly from boredom)....that is hard to admit, but true. I admit to downloading lots of different porn, to watching it on my phone and to having it on my iPod. I have made DVDs of my favorite downloads and have even shopped for it in a sex shop. The access to porn is so easy, people can find it through a simple image search on Google. Even talking to friends of mine they have admitted to just surfing and clicking though a porn site's videos when bored or even surfing through pictures on their phones.
Many of us (with or without a lover), have taken nude pictures, sexy pictures and even videos and shared those pictures and videos. Delving into amateur porn of sorts. Each time I take a nude pic of myself for someone or a video as a naughty lil surprise for a lover, I find myself feeling a little shame about it.
I still don't understand why our society doesn't embrace sex the way other cultures have. I see nothing wrong with legalizing prostitution, strip clubs or access to porn for adults. I don't believe in a hedonistic society where pleasure is the central role. However, I do believe there are more freaks than prudes in the United States.
I am not sure if I am done with this, but as the title stated....random thoughts
Peace out my peeps....remember to fly your freak flag proudly!
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